Sometimes I wonder what happens if I.....

I knew that it won't be something that I would look forward to. The day has come and it's time to face the fact and truth. Thank GOD that he's good to me all the time,especially in this crazy moment in my life. Without GOD's grace and strength I dont think that I could be able to withstand the stress and also other chaos in my life.

We are extremely close these days. He has been a very comforting and warm person to me these pass weeks. At times I'm down...depressed,bt he was there all them time. Thank you!!

Nowadays,instead of mixing around like how I used to I prefer to be alone and not mix so much. Am I in the process of changing? Have I change to be someone that is not me at all? Somehow, this is affecting my emotions and attitude towards things especially to people around me. Sorry dearries if I have done or say something that have affected anyone of you. I will control my speech and actions,or maybe I should just shut up.

Loneliness...

What really haunts me is being alone. I don't like it because it creeps me out. I am alright with anything but not loneliness. The one and only thing that its alright is shopping. I can shop alone...but other than that it's a no no.
This is a very random post,tell me about it.


Recently,things are just playing in my head. I lost control of myself and I don't know what I am doing. Mood swaying all the time, and I don't know why this happens. I got to control myself better and not to lose it. Many things happen recently,things that I have never imagine it to happen actually happens. Nothing is impossible,right?

Because of you..

Recently,my mood is in a terrible state and is still is.

I'm hurting people by my stupid words

and also attitude.

What is wrong with me?

I shouldn't let things control over me.

I shall try to control myself more because

I don't want to hurt anyone anymore.

It's sad seeing you get hurt because of me.

Sorry for my behaviour.

I will never do such things to you ever again.

If you would just forgive me.....

Sometimes, I just feel like running away to a far far away land

where no one know who am I

and I don't know anyone there.

I feel like Im gonna explode somehow.

*only you can make my day better*

How I wish I just could......

Exams are just around the corner,and Im not prepared at all.

I wonder how am I gonna sit for it. 

Tried to study but nothing seems to be going in.

I seriously cant concerntrate at all.

My mind starts wondering away.....

There are really a lot of things that are 

'BOTHERING' me........

I wish I could just turn back time,

I wish I could just ran away

to a far away land where no one

can find me or know me.

Living my life like this isn't 

comfortable for me.

Things are getting tougher and tougher.....

And Im scared to face those things.

Im not kind of person that handles those situation very well.

Or Im just taking things too seriously...

Well...I DONT KNOW.

Worthless

This makes a person really bad

Im really cant face with you.

Although understanding your pain, but how can I be like this

I know that every day you want to improve better

But my heart become more tired

If we stay together, maybe both of us will be hurt

Im silently screaming

I laugh without notice

Behind you I just try to control myself not to find you anymore

But I still cannot abandon you

Youre really beautiful

I love you already

Asking you to forget me, but in fact, it just a lie

Please do not go, do not leave me alone

Please come back to me

Private or Non Private

Just make this back to public view..Hopefully the 'stalker' is not gonna stalk my blog again. ''Somebody'' keeps on saying that he wanna be invited to my blog. Now I make it back to a public blog,so dont need to invite you dy....happy?

S.M.I.L.E