Total messed up.......

Don't act like you know me that well

In fact, you don't know anything about me at all

So, stop that crap of yours saying that you know me well

Don't say things that doesn't make any sense,cause it creeps me.

I know you care about me up to that extant that you can do anything

But,there is always a limit ok?

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How can I make you understand?

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Things are no longer the same like it used to.

U and I have to move on.......

Im trying,and i hope that you will too....

I know it's hard,but you have to try.

I only have one hope on you now,

Is that I hope to see you take this step and move forward,

I want you to live a happy life,

Not a life that it's meaningless.

STOP BEING SO FOOLISH!!!

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I remembered you once told me

that loving someone is a very sweet thing.

No words can describe how that feeling is....

Remember once you said that,

seeing that person you love smile,is that best feeling ever.

You would do anything to make me smile.

I still remember this freshly within me.

Every word you said,is still clear in me.

I find it very true....

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I wanna smile again for you

But,somehow its painful.

I dont want to be in pain anymore.

Its something that I wanna avoid doing.

Will you make me smile again?

In fact, I wanna see you smile again.

Be that person that I know for 3 years.

I prefer the old you a lot more.....

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D-I-L-E-M-M-A

Thanks for coming all the way from Korea just to celebrate my birthday.You really don't need to,but thanks anyway for all the wonderful things that you have done for me. All I can do now is just to tell you how fortunate I am to have you as a friend.Somehow, I know that this won't make you feel better but this is all I can do.Sorry,sorry and sorry again.....for hurting you all the time.Those words that I told you were words from trully from my heart.

~I only L.O.V.E him~

SORRY...

*missing u*

''Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between,

you occupy my mind. Practically,every moment in my day,

you are in my thought. I MISS YOU.''

''I did three things today. miss u,miss u and miss u!!''

''When I miss you ,I don't have to go far.....

I just need to look in my heart,

that's where I will find you.''

''I heard someone calling your name...

When I turn around to see who it was,you weren't there.

I realised that it was my heart telling me that I miss you.''

''When you are not here,something's missing....

my smile....''

No words could express how I felt about it.......

This year's birthday is really the best among all

No because there's now number '2' in front of my age

But because there were so many unexpected and suprises

''PHEW''

He came last night with E and J.

Well,I did not expect to see him though......

He was cool as usual as he is..

When he left,he gave me a .......(dont wanna be specific with it)

& wish me again...

Then when everything ended,I went online cz

I received a sms from him asking me to go online.....

We chat online and he told me tht he is doing great in Korea.....

We talked and talked and talked for hours....

Then when we wanna end our conversation,

He showed me an airplane ticket...

It was a 2 way flight ticket to Malaysia....

He's coming back on Monday which is so soon....

I'm so not ready to meet him.

WHAT AM I GONNA TO DO?

~~ THANK YOU ~~ KAMSAHAMIDA ~~

Wanna specially shout out to

~Sarah,Taryn,Eric,Ivan,Bryan & Jonathan~

Thank you for the advance birthday celebration.

Although most of you were like dead tired

and have exam on the next day......

You guys still came.

Thank you peeps =)

Heard that you and E

went and survey the place .

Also,that you wanted to come

but due to transport and

for being so far away

you cant make it.

y.o.u

Of all the mooncake celebration,somehow i felt that this year was the best of all. There were so many people that came on tht night,and my house is like pasar malam. But it was fun to have my relatives and also my friends from church,i mean the monkeys to come over that day. Although they did not play any lanterns or eat any mooncake,but they dig in in the steamboat and bbq. Sorry hahaha if you guys were hungry.....lol!!!!!! Well,I was very happy that i felt like im on clouds because he was here.He was supposed to go out with his friends,but he didnt and he came to my house instead. At first, I thought that he wont really just go with his friends and wont give a damn on coming to my house,but he came instead.

''I COOK RAMEN FOR HIM!!!!!!!!"

sorry,but i couldnt help it but to type this out....

=)

Another funny thing was that he left his bag in Eric's car

and when he send him home,he didnt take his bag with him..

He forgotten that he left his bag in his car...

BLUR right? But i find it adorable...lol!!!

I did not realize that it was his bag, until Eric reached my house.

I was like,eh Eric is this your bag?

Eric was like 'NOPE. its his!!!''

So,hahahahah i took down his bag....

Somehow I feel stupid doing this...hahaha

And i really treated it like something real precious

and I even scolded Eric for putting the bag on the floor.

SORRY ERIC!!!!!!! You wont be angry rite? =)

lol...He didnt even realize that his bag wasnt with him....cute right?

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I had fun because of you.

You really made my day,

My best mooncake festival ever.

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